We are all chasing something. I think this is an undeniable truth. The fulfilling life is when we are able to recognize the one thing we are chasing to be purposeful; to have meaning; a motive. The journey one takes seeking to obtain that thing we long for can be exciting. That job, that relationship, moving to this neighborhood, being selected for the team. The list goes on. So, when you fall short the pain one feels is real. I’ve felt that pain in the last week. Still, nothing is wasted.
A possible move for me and my family was on the horizon recently. What started with a simple trip, quickly became an opportunity to draw an action plan and get my mind thinking the change was happening. When the reality of that change evaporated I was relieved to know that God had a better plan. But there was still a sense of the what if. Why can’t I have what I want? Why do I have to stay here? Why does he/her get to move? All these questions came to my mind in flurry of emotions that so many times are hard to explain.
“Nothing is Wasted” was a song I heard recently that allowed me to place so much perspective to what life has been for me in the last 3 months. I’ve learned much; grown as a husband, a father and a son of God. It also reminded me of the motive behind my decisions and the ways that my life can be impactful for others. Simply put, this journey to what I didn’t get was a lesson of understanding myself and reminded me of my motive.
Have you ever felt the same? What did you learn?